I guess i could write a new journal.

I have a new rat. yeah im the crazy rat lady her name is Portabella June but i call her bella but she only comes to Portabella. She is identical to Belle in everyway but... her eyes are blood red. She is pretty. I visit belles little grave just about everyday. I bought her some flowers and when the weather is nice im going to grow Bleeding hearts on her grave.

In other news. Molly has a tumor. She'll have to be put down. Right now im avoiding bringing her in because i just dont want to deal with another death. The vet says that most of the time they can be removed but they still will get more and it will most likely be a waste of time. She can also be put down but right now she'll just be unhappy and agressive but since ive had her shes been agressive.

Other Other news: Chris was sent to prision about 10 days ago. He'll be in jail for 2 months. I visited a few times gave him pictures of the girls and pictures of me. He recently was sent to the high rise. Im hoping he wont get his head bashed in. I know some people whose family was sent there and they were raped then got there skulls broke by rocks. How chris got there? Well hes special and got caught driving with a revoked license. Why he got his license revoked? Well there was a car accident in flordia about a year ago. The crash was not his fault but the lady claimed it was. he got a ticket. When we went to the courthouse to pay it off they claimed the ticket did not exist. well he got pulled a while back cuz he had a brake light out and they found out he never went to court or paid off the ticket there for they took the license. In case chris wasnt in enough trouble he kept driving around.So yeah thats been pretty hard on me.

Hopefully in 2 weeks ill be able to visit him its a 5 hour drive to the high rise and im trying to get off work cuz if i visit i can hug him.

I wish he could have stayed in the local jail 2 minutes away cuz there i could visi every saturday after work and he was allowed a collect call ever day. of course i cant accept collect calls but instead of leaving hes name he would send me messages. The last one was hello you have a collect call from "hey baby i miss and love you." that made me smile.

so im still working full time and going to school full time. i have started making sculptures again and worked with my photography a little. Eventually ill put up pictures of belle and my sculptures.

p.s.
I feel in love with the song below its just amazing.

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Song of the day:

It's looking like a limb torn off
Or altogether just taken apart
We're reeling through an endless fall
We are the ever-living ghost of what once was

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

And anything to make you smile
It is my better side of you to admire
But they should never take so long
Just to be over then back to another one

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

But someone,
They could have warned you
When things start splitting at the seams and now
The whole thing's tumbling down
Things start splitting at the seams and now
If things start splitting at the seams and now,
It's tumbling down
Hard.

Anything to make you smile
You are the ever-living ghost of what once was
I never want to hear you say
That you'd be better off
Or you liked it that way

But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do
No one's gonna love you more than I do

But someone
They should have warned you
When things start splitting at the seams and now
The whole thing's tumbling down
Things start splitting at the seams and now
If things start splitting at the seams and now,
It's tumbling down
Hard

Band of horses No ones gonna love you